I have a busy week ahead, and as I sit here and think about it, all I can think is how much I miss sleeping in. Really sleeping in, as in past noon. Sleeping in these days happens when there is either a day off from school or I book a brunch shift off, and if I’m lucky, I can stay in bed until 8:30, maybe 9. But that is a rarity still.
Sorry that this keeps coming up, my tiredness, but it’s how I seem to roll. There is just not enough time in the day to do all the things I want to and need to. Does this ever end? Before kids I felt busy, but in hindsight, I had all the time in the world. I was able to be leisurely, and at the same time I could work like crazy and still feel like I had a life. This is where the sleeping in definitely helped.
I also feel like because I’m so run down, that I’m not very healthy either. I’ve been sick, headaches are more frequent and my digestion is not so great. Doesn’t help that I worry about it constantly, so my mental state is not healthy either. I hide these things pretty well (I think?), and each night I resolve to get back on track, only to make excuses the next day and eat badly, and talk shit to myself. I need to be nicer to me. And I need more nap time.